I’ve just finished talking to two of my closest ones and I’m feeling better now.

Loads of things are stuck on my mind that I couldn’t talk to anyone about them. It’s bothering me a lot.

My blog is not a media for me to express my personal feelings anymore, since long time ago. How I wish I could be like before, where I could write down whatever happens, feelings and thoughts that bug me every single day. I do really need a way to express my feelings.

I started to lose myself day by day…

and ~ I don’t even know what to type and say right now, but my mind is full of shit and the feelings really SUX!

okay FML.

I do really mean, Fuck My Life FYI

gimme a glass of wine and chocolate, or put a BIGBIG smile on my face

oh would you?

[edit on 16/11]

I’m goin crazy! seriously! and even if there’s 100 cups of my favourite desserts in front of me i also couldn’t smile.

Fuck it seriously! Why is everything so fucked up?! Why?!

Okay It went wrong from the very beginning! Why do both of the lecturers wanna push me to death from the beginning?! why can’t I choose my own group myself like any others in my class did?! Yes yes yes u are right. I’m the lousiest 3rd yr designer student ever in TOA who doesn’t know that a human’s head behind should look smaller than another human’s head in front of it wtf. Did I place them like this??did it do that?! Ya u are right no wonder I’m now grouped in the lousiest group and just waiting here to die!

So much work to do but so damn fucking lil time! But i still have to cut the fucking tomatoes, cucumbers and cheese tonight and count the cost and determine how much we suppose to sell the sandwiches fuck it seriously!! Why should we do all these shit that are not even related to our course!?

I am so lousy I know. I don’t know how to deal with stress and i deserve all these okay i know.

How I wish i could just drop everything!

fuck it fuck it fuck it FML!

I know I’ve been swearing a lot lately. But when everything is so fucked up how can u don’t swear?

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