Christmas is just around the corner!

I love this festival but i haven’t been to the mall lately, so i havn’t seen any Christmas tree and deco so far and I still couldn’t feel the atmosphere :(

U know what, when i was a kid, I was so so excited whenever Christmas is coming. That’s because i love santa claus very much! Tee-hee :D Remembered that time i always bug my mom to bring me to the mall because i wanted to meet santa claus. I wanted to hug santa claus. I wanted to take picture with santa claus and i wanted to get some gifts from him even it’s just some candies :D  But my mom never did. She always said that the traffic is terrible during the month and the mall would be crowded. I was always so disappointed every year.

So my lil dream never come true.

untill now, I’ve grown up and i can hang out by myself. I met santa claus in the mall sometimes but I dare not walk near him although it was once my lil dream.

你有没有发现, 人长大后往往变得胆怯了, 某一些你很想做的事，某些很简单的事，你都不敢做了

长大不是不好， 只是， 什么都变得不再简单

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Dearest Santa, I have been a good good girl all the while *cough cough*

This is my Christmas wishlist and do u mind putting them into the bigbig socks in my room in the middle of the night and kiss me on my forehead?

BlackBerry Curve 8520

and

Lv Neverfull Damier MM

My biggest Christmas wishlist I’m so desperate to get them! :(

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While everyone is starting to plan for their Christmas, I already have mine! :D

Guess what! I will be having a WHITE Christmas in Hokkaido this year. Geee! How lucky i am！

But wait, don’t be jealous okay, I will be spending my Christmas alone this year :( Sis got her hubby and my bro has his gf for this Christmas but I’m alone, with papa :( Dear Santa pls gimme a handsome guy or a romantic man in Hokkaido for this coming Christmas LOL

here are some pictures of my soon coming white Christmas in Hokkaido hehehe. I got them from internet

ahhh can’t wait for the day to come! :D

Image source: Flickr.com

Image source: http://www.pbase.com/keithpictures/hokkaido_japan

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I don’t want to talk about it, think about it and yes I’m trying to escape from reality

I know I’m gonna face it one day, just like today.

I don’t want to cry in the public. But my emotion couldn’t hide under my skin. I feel so ashamed. My tears dropped in front of so many ppl once again. I kept telling myself it’s okay. But if there’s a choice, I would have chosen to run away instead of letting it to be that way.

I know I’ve been so irresponsible being an adult these days. I hate growing up. I just want to be happy, have fun everyday, live the life how i want it to be and forget about some fucked up things in life, stop being emo. And time flies ~ slowly

Passion fades away…

Dreams fade away …

I lost myself, with no direction.

Sometimes, I look myself in the mirror and wonder, who am i?

I know what i am doin but sometimes I refuse to know and continue to blindly live my life. I know what and where the problem is but I don’t wanna face it or solve it. Loser right?

Time is amazing. It unknowingly changes someone to another one. You won’t feel that u r changing day by day. But when u look back in time, u’ll find a big difference! Know what, I miss the previous me, so much. I need it back right now. I need to find the broken pieces of myself back. Or i should say, I need to grow up.

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Last but not least, bitches are always bitches, typically fuckable.

couldn’t they just keep their freaking mouth shut for a minute?! oh FML seriously why the fuck would these kind of ppl exist in my life?!

and hey lil bitches do u believe in KARMA?

Good luck and have fun bitching around yea :D

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