This post should be a very happy post cos i planned to blog about my awesome bah kut teh session on Sunday with the almighty loke yea and Loo loo.
but now it turns out to be a lil bit emo and fucked up post
okay that is because the same damn thing has happened to me again just now during the morning class. but it was even worst n way EMBERRASSING !
it’s fucking embarrassing i tell u

sometimes i wish that my blog is not so exposed to the public so that i can express my feelings, thoughts, and everything i’ve gone through in my life here and my blog won’t be looking so fake like what stella mentioned in her previous post. I totally agree with u.
If my blog was not so exposed i could rant about everything here! I would just tel u how evil those ppl are, how kiasu and how they being so damn fucking selfish and stuff.
and i would tel u how sad i was when i’ve been treated like this. (shit i sound like a pathetic lil chick here. NO NO don’t misunderstand okay im just expressing my feelings)

I don’t understand why these kind of shitty things always happened to me. Why me ?!
You don’t know how much i HATE grouping now! and when i said that i HATE goin to college doesnt mean that i dont want to study okay, it’s because of some other fucking reasons.

This morning we did some grouping stuff in class. One of my classmates and I couldn’t form a group. so ended up we have to stand in front of class and present our idea to the whole class so that they would let us join their group.
Damn, do u know how many pairs of eyes were looking at us?! and we were standing thr like some real pathetic and abandoned chicks waiting for someone to save us. damn i hate this feeling!
and so u would think that we didnt try our best to find our group. I did okay when lect told us that we can actually group with other ppl who are doin diff topics but just ~ just ~ i guess u might know what im goin to say~ yes they won’t tell u straight that ”oh no we dont want to group with u” but ppl would just keep quiet when u asked them and then find other smarter ppl to be their group members. Yes sometimes we don’t need to hear the answer. I’m not a smart person but at least i still got brain. Yea fine =) it was not the 1st time anyway.

so when everyone was looking at me, lect told the whole class that i’m gonna present my idea n stuff so that they could see if they want me to join their group, my brain suddenly went empty and blank.
it was fucking EMPTY and BLANK i couldn’t think of any words and things to present but the flash back of the damn thing which happened last week kept playing in mind and tears nearly roll out of my eyes. I can’t even concentrate as i’ve tried my very best, i really cant ! those shitty things were all stuck in my mind. i cant think of other things. so i was just standing thr with a numb face.
lecturers actually tried very hard to help me. But i couldn’t think and hear anything but standing thr, numbed with all the flash back in my mind.
And some of the classmates actually saw the tears. So can u imagine how awkward and embarrassed was that ?

about the damn thing that happened last week ~ it made me really upset and cried the whole day when i realised the truth.
U dont know how much i wish to take part in the photography contest which is organised by Olympus and my college. but i didnt make it too because again, i couldn’t find a group.
It’s so sad that u know actually ppl dont want to group with u and they kept answering u with ”oh i dont know wor”, ”have to consider bout it lo” then the next day u see those ppl got their own group but they wont ask u to join them as they actually know that u wanted to join.
Damn fucking pissed off but actually i shouldn’t be! I can be sad but I cant be pissed off by these ppl because they have their rights to choose their own members right. Yea i know it ~ I know some kiasu ppl are SUPER KIASU they only wanna join smart ppl, they r scared of losing. who wants to be in the same group with a person who gets a fucking D in her photography? who will be so kind enough? ppl r always so fucking realistic n those kiasu ppl are even more prone to! agree ? NO offense.

from both of these damn matters, it clearly projects the actual personality of those ppl.
and i think that this is the difference between FRIENDS and CLASSMATES.
It’s not a bad thing after all. But i can say that im really very sad over these incidents, it’s like telling u the fact that ppl look down on u, u are very weak and they boycott u in some particular stuff.
And now i got phobia of grouping. LOL

i still have two more semesters to go, i know i might be facing this again. i wish that i could “get used” to it and learn how to handle it properly and also control my emotion well in public.

DAMN.

yeah i felt much better. Really !
I guess i would blog more about my daily life, thoughts and feelings here instead of all those happening outings and pictures =)

I don’t care anymore if anyone hates me after reading or whatever
U have the right to boycott me n i have the right to write anything here also right? Heeee =D

The mood is turning better !
so here’s the bah kut teh pictures ~

Loke Yea is a very kind person. Really
I love him very much! I mean as a friend la ok~
He took us to Klang on Sunday morning for the awesome bah kut teh
we talked a lot that day, and laughed a lot too
I always have very wonderful moments chilling out with him =)

My lovely baby Looloo
he’s always so cute♥
LOL his T-shirt blends into the background XD

The bah kut teh !

I love the dry-style bah kut teh as well !

the oily ‘yao zha guai’

ahhhh yummy♥ ~

Loke yea gave us this yummy homemade bak zhang !
big thx to u the almighty loke

yesterday when i was taking nap, someone knocked on my door
and it was Looloo♥
after opening the door, i went back to bed n continued sleeping
then he showed me something on my bed
guess what ?

yeah it’s my favourite cuppacakes♥ by wonder milk

thx baby ~
finally u have successfully given me a surprise XD

p/s: Loke u r not disgusting ok, u r very kind, cute and humorous instead.
unlike any others =)